everyone is growin

Well my baby is 4 months old…. She is growing too fast! She rolled over for the first time from her stomach to her back and then a few days later she started rolling from her back to her stomach. She is the sweetest baby, she really brightens our day. We have started baby cereal. It’s a work in progress!!!!!! Who knew daddy would be better at feeding her cereal than me? The truth is he doesn’t mind a mess and I try and wipe her hands and face after ever bite and every sit out. LOL… If I want a successful feeding I guess I better release my O.C.D. to JESUS!!!!!  We have really hit some milestones this month!!

March 9- Tensley turned 4 months old.

March 11- My cousin came and stayed overnight with Tensley. Phillip and I rented a hotel and went to a really nice dinner to “get away” for my birthday. FUN FACT: The hotel was down the street from our house…. I couldn’t get to far away… hahaha

March 12- I turned 25… I'm half way to 50!!!!

March 13- Tensley took her first nap in her own crib!!!! No tears!!!! She has slept in a bassinet next to our bed since birth. April 1 we are going to have her sleep in her own bed all the time. We figured we should get her used to it during nap time first. I am going to miss her noises at night and seeing her smiling face when I roll over in the morning.

March 26- Phillip and I are having our big Crawfish Boil Birthday Party!!!

March 28- Phillip turns 25! He'll be half way to 50 too... Even though he already acts like he's 55!!!

We didn’t make it to church this morning :( Phillip was tired and his stomach hurt and I was (am) grouchy and the baby is sleeping….. All EXCUSES….. I know……. The GREAT news is JESUS STILL LOVES US!!!!! Here are a few new pictures for your enjoyment!!!

First bites of cereal.

Cereal face!

All smiles :)

Twins..... LoL... Neither one can pose for a picture!

1st nap in her crib.

new and old

Our Little Princess!!

He will kill me when he sees this :)

WOW!! That's all I can say about that LOL :)

Sweet Picture :)

Home Bound :)

sappy and all that jazzzz

So since I am really missing my boy and I have yet to hear from him except a voicemail he left me earlier saying....... BEGINNING PART: Hey, babe I love you... MIDDLE PART: yadda, yadda, yadda.... and..... LAST PART: If I don't call you for awhile or I don't answer when you call me back it's because I'm out playing with all the toys!!!! Oh well I guess I'll hear all about it when he gets home, if he comes home.... lol.... Any who, I have been wanting to type up our vows for awhile now and just haven't sat down to do it. Well since I was feeling all sappy and missing him I typed them up. For your viewing pleasure!!!

Lauren-

You are the love of my life.

Christ himself brought us together and in Him alone we shall stand as husband and wife.

Romans 8:16-18

The spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God. And if children then heirs- heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him that we may also be glorified together.  For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. 

Lauren I promise that through thick and thin together we will walk hand in hand and side by side through whatever life may bring.

I vow to always seek God first in every problem and every decision in our life. I vow to be faithful, honest and always give you truth because you deserve nothing less. I will protect you and our family with my life.

Phillip-

Babe I love you with all my heart. You are beyond special to me. Many people search a lifetime for their one true love however I have been fortunate enough to have loved mine since I was 16 years old. I promise to encourage you and inspire you, to laugh with you and love with you. I promise to comfort you in times of sorrow and struggle. I promise to love you in good times and in bad. When life seems easy and when it seems hard. When our love is simple and when it’s an effort. I promise to speak and to more importantly listen even when it’s difficult. I look forward to spending the rest of my life caring for you, nurturing you, and being there for you in all life has for us! You are the love of my life Phillip and I am honored to walk side by side with you forever.

**When I read those I remember how much I love that man and just how much I appreciate everything he does for our family! I am so blessed that God allowed me to marry him and share our lives together.......

not a year it's only 4 days

I miss my hubby. You know they say distance makes the heart grow fonder… I don’t know about all that but it sure makes me want him back, and it’s only been exactly 28 hours since I kissed him goodbye. Anyways, backing up…… This week was a busy week I was working, he was working, and then he was working extra jobs, we have had insurance issues as far as coverage for Tensley goes, and we have had tax return issues… UGH… It’s been a long stressful week, nothing is resolved and now to top it off my hubby is gone. Since we got married we have only spent 1 night apart and that was because he was working a different shift at work. I miss him!! I’m sure you’re wondering what great adventure he is on… seeing how it must be something so amazing that he would be willing to leave his AMAZING wife and BEAUTIFUL baby girl for a year… OK… not a year it's only 4 days but it might as well be a year. LOL. The only thing that can keep my man away from his family is……. HUNTIN’…… I am so glad that he got to go this year, it is his greatest passion (thank you Jason)!!! Due to our busy week and the fact that we didn’t want to spend the only free time we had this week cleaning , it was TOTALLY put on hold!!!! I have clean dishes, dirty dishes (yes I just admitted that), clean clothes, dirty clothes, shoes, jackets, and huntin’ gear everywhere…… WHAT…? Don’t judge me I didn’t invite you over and pretend it was clean…. I know it’s a HOT MESS!! My only weekend plan: Get this place in tip top shape!!!! Everyone likes to come home to a clean house.

silence and love

The Saturday before last we had our first kid free date in hmmm 3 months (as of Wednesday). It was amazing!! We went to a birthday party for dinner and by 8:30 Tensley had already had enough… As we were heading home Phillip looked at me and said that we should go out. We were already dressed up and my cousin was down so she could stay at the house once we put the kiddo down (I haven’t gotten up the courage to really leave her with anyone while she is awake yet) because she usually goes to bed at 9:30 and we don’t hear from her until 7:30-8:00 (jealous... OR WHAT). I quick texted my cousin to see if she would come over, and of course she agreed. However she was a little disappointed that we had already bathed her, fed her and she was down for the night by the time she got there. Phillip and I decided to go see a movie (No Strings Attached) I was a little worried that he might not stay awake but he assured me he could and would. Only to find out later that he took 4 B-12 pills before we left in hopes that he would actually be able to stay awake.... :-O <-- insert my shocked face here…… We talked, held hand, kissed and loved each other the whole time! It really reminded me of when we were in high school and the movie was the place to be…. That was where we had basically all of our dates. My boy stayed awake for the entire movie and we lifted the armrest and held each other the whole time (his idea) it was so sweet. It really made me realize that we need to get out just the two of us more often. Even though it was only 3 hours of us time it rejuvenated our relationship. I’m so lucky I get to love him every day.

sunday bloody sunday

Today was a great day. We all woke up and went to the early service at church because we thought that was the service the rest of my family would go to BUT NO… they were not there. I have started this thing that now the whole family does…. On the way to church somehow the word Sunday comes up 90% of the time and I start (loudly) singing Sunday Bloody Sunday (the song) now it’s like an on the way to church ritual. We got to church NONE too early and I hate to be late but I tried not to get “an attitude” with my snail of a hubby about it. Usually I hold Tensley during service because I just love to sway back and forth while I sing the songs to her. However today I let Phillip hold her just about all service. I needed a bit of a Jesus break! It was actually very nice. Phillip and I had a conversation/discussion the other day about how I was extremely snappy and seemed a bit angry (which I am). All during service I gave those “troubles” whatever they may be to God…. I don’t want or need them anymore! I went down to the front and got prayed for and made a God appointed…. appointment for Theophostic Prayer believing it will show me my brokenness!! After church we went to my Granny’s house because she had not gotten a chance to see Tensley yet. On the ride to and from I made a point to hold Phillips hand in the car and love on him. I “tried” not to be snappy or angry about the little things. Everyone had a pretty good time. My dad made burgers and we all sat around chattin’ it up. Tensley was talkin’ and talkin’. I am pretty sure that she thinks she can say full sentences. Everyone says she is like an adult trapped in a babys body LOL I agree although with her bald head she has the old man look down pretty good too. My dad said maybe she was Benjamin Button ROTFL….. Tensley behaved great the whole time and we were able to head out just as she was getting sleepy, figuring she would sleep the whole ride home. She didn’t sleep at all but she was content in the back just looking around.  On the way home I received a text asking if I would be able to watch some kiddos for 3hrs Monday-Friday. Helping them start homework and start dinner a couple nights a week and 1 day of light cleaning and I was going to be able to bring Tensley. I talked to Phillip quickly about it and the first question he asked was… how much are they paying you? We had hoped I could find a job to take Tensley with me where I could make a decent amount to help out with bills. We have had a figure in our heads for awhile now. I quickly said well let’s say a quick prayer that it’s exactly what we need and I will ask them what they are thinking of paying. So we did just that. It took her quite some time to reply but when she did it was the exact amount that we had just asked God for… PTL… So I replied with a see ya tomorrow!! We had planned on grilling for dinner but it seemed like time had got away from us. We got home at 4:00pm and the next time we looked at the clock it was 7:30. So I finished soothing a screaming, crying, and terribly behaved baby while trying to organize all the 257 pictures I had just picked up from Walgreen's and Phillip went to Kroger’s to get some chipotle fried chicken….. YUM…. We had a nice dinner where we talked the whole time (usually he just wants to get to sleep) and after dinner we were goofing around and I may or may not have poked him in the eye where he totally milked the fact that his eye was burrrrrrning and he thought he was going to go blind!!! I just kept telling him he wasn’t getting any sympathy from me if he couldn’t play with the big dogs he needed to get out of the cage (I totally made up the get out of the cage part because I couldn’t remember what it really said. he was none the wiser)!! As usual 9:30pm rolled around and there he was curled up next to me snoring while once again I was rocking my precious (bad mood) baby to sleep!! Usually I would find myself irritated that he didn’t have the decency to at least try and stay awake with me. However I gave that anger to God this morning so I just had to laugh. Here it is 11:22 and I’m finally about to hop in the shower both my babies are sound asleep and I am going to relax!

why a blog today with all of life’s little messes

Today is my first official blog. I have wanted to start this for a week or so but I wanted my page to look “perfect” before I got anything posted (ridiculous I know) I have been reading a friend of mines blog for quite some time. The other day she referenced another ladies blog and I went to read it…. I LOVE HER!! I couldn’t sleep for almost 3 nights just reading all her blogs… I found myself talking about her to friends like we were extremely close *PSYCHO MUCH* She truly inspired me though. She is so real and she is capturing things with words that she will never be able to remember. Tensley is only three months old (almost) and I have already let so much slip away. I mean I just now got some pictures developed of her birth. How bad am I? After I realized that I was sleep deprived because I spent all my nights up reading this ladies blog I actually felt a little sad. I’m not as crafty as she is, I don’t have money like she does, I hadn’t thought of doing a blog earlier, I wanted to start a blog but who knows if I will really keep up with it and if I do it won’t be nearly as interesting as hers, etc… and trust me the list went on and on and on. I finally decided NO I wasn’t going to start one. There are enough things that I don’t have time to do that I make myself feel guilty for… laundry, dishes, cleaning, making dinner, loving my husband, etc…. Why add one more thing to disappoint myself. Gosh even just reading that makes me feel depressed. Nonetheless a few days passed and I guess I got out of my “funk” and decided what better way to remember the good and bad of life’s little messes. So here we gooooo